Joyful Noise: Mutterings

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(c) 2016 || www.studiomathewes.com

Muttering isn’t a good sign. It’s usually a curse, or a frustrated sentence I wish I could throw at another person (or even the world), but am afraid to utter in a louder voice for fear of being overheard.

Muttering means I’m saying things I’m ashamed to say.

Muttering means I’m angry or resentful, or hurt. And when I fill my interim spaces with hurtful mutterings, I harden my own heart towards others and even towards myself.

So the other day I challenged myself to murmur prayers instead of muttering. Simple ones–the Jesus prayer, or even just a “Lord, have mercy,” (perhaps just a little exasperated).

And my day was filled with little spaces of prayer and gratitude and asking for strength.

And I felt little less sorry for myself.

And I felt a little closer to God.

So instead of muttering the anger in my heart, I’m going to murmur the prayers I know to protect my heart and turn it towards God, when I can.

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