Joyful Noise: The Fumbling Prayer

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I thought I knew the prayer.

I was convinced that I could easily get up in the mornings and pray the prayer of St. Philaret that I have tacked by my bed. I had committed to this new habit so that I could begin my day focusing on the most important thing.

But when I got up in the early morning dark, I fumbled.

I got my flashlight out and shone it on the text. I remembered the next few lines.

And then I fumbled again.

I had to ask myself, then, if I really memorized the prayer by heart. I had to ask what prayer really was. If I memorized the prayer, would I know it even then?

I’ve almost completely memorized the prayer so that I can say it in the groggy waking moments of early morning.

But I still don’t know it yet. I need to write it on my heart–

“‘This is the covenant I will make with the people of Israel after that time,’ declares the LORD. ‘I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people.'”
–Jeremiah 31:33

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